"This next song is for a very special guy in my life", I said into the microphone as the fans started to scream. I smiled, the strings to my guitar grazed my finger as I slowly moved my hand up and down. My eyes fell to the floor as I whispered, "I just hope you're listening..."
The lights around the crowd went black, I couldn't see anyone standing only the twinkle of a few necklights here and there. The lights above me shined down, they felt hot and very bright. I breathed in and began to sing into the microphone,
"I'm desperate for changing,
Starving for truth,
I'm closer to where I started,
I'm chasing after you.

I'm falling even more in love with you,
I'm letting go of all I've held on to,
I'm standing here until you make me move,
I'm hanging by a moment here with you."

The crowd began to scream again. I looked around, I couldn't see a face anywhere, I could only hear the distant screams of fans as I began to play. I closed my eyes and continued, praying that he was listening,

"Forgetting all I'm lacking,
Completely incomplete,
I'll take your invitation,
You take all of me...

I'm falling even more in love with you,
I'm letting go of all I've held on to,
I'm standing here until you make me move,
I'm hanging by a moment here with you,
I'm living for the only thing I know,
I'm running and not quiet sure where to go,
And I don't know what I'm diving into,
I'm hanging by a moment..."

I stopped singing, the lights were so hot on my back and faceas I tried to breathe and choked on air. My hand stopped moving, the music behind me stopped playing, the crowd fell silent. I sat there, center stage, lights hitting me with intense heating rays as I tried to catch my breath. Sweat rolled down the back of my neck as I turned to look out over my right shoulder, he wasn't there. He couldn't hear me, I was making a fool of myself to try and tell him that he was the only one for me, and he wasn't even listening.
I looked back out to the crowd and tried to continue... what note was it? What was the next verse or was it the chorus? Maybe the bridge? I couldn't remember! I couldn't remember our song!
The crowd started to grow restless and whisper. I heard a couple girls in in the front "What is she doing?" "I don't know, maybe she has stage fright?" "Should we leave?"
My head dropped, this was it. The last time I could make a mistake an I wasted it on a guy! Was this the end of my career?...

four monthes earlier...
Demi
"Thank you for coming out tonight! God bless", I said as I waved to the screaming fans and walked off stage. Three anchors, my throat was hurting, my face was hot and sweaty, my long hair was all knotted from rocking out with the band... this was the life!
I placed my microphone down and grabbed the towel offered to me and began to wiped my face, "Do you mind getting me a water?"
The man in the headset shook his head and disappeared. I breathed in and out slowly, tonight was just insane, even for me. I smiled as my manager came walking up to me with praises, "You were lovely, you look lovely, your life is lovely, love. Now, how about we clean up a little bit, meet some V.I.P.ers and then hit the road to the big apple? What do you say about that, love?"
I smiled and nodded, "Sounds great, as long as a big, thick juicey burger is in the deal, I'm starving..."
As I said this I felt my stomach roll and growl. I placed my hand over it and put my fingers to my lips, "Sh, in a minute."
Mr. Val shook his head, "Not a big juicey burgers, but how about a big juicey apple? It's delicious, nutricious and it keeps the doctor away, I hear."
I frowned, "I had an apple this morning, for lunch and right before I went on stage. I need other food groups like rice, nuts, meat..."
"Hold that thought, love. Val speaking", he said as he placed his hand over his ear and began to talk, "Ah-huh. Right... so why don't you? Don't call back unless you have, got it?"
I took the water bottle handed to me began to drink it as I waited for Val to hang up. He pressed a button on his phone and turned back to me, "Alright, let get an apple, put a smile on your face and be friendly."
"But Val", I started to say before he placed his finger over my lips and shushed me, "Now what did we say before. Eating healthy leads to clear skin, nice hair..."
I rolled my eyes, "And a happy rockstar."
Val hugged my shoulders, "Right on. Now, go and meet our fans that paid an arm and a leg and maybe a head or two just to shake your hand."
I walked away from Val and into my dressing room where three teenage girls about my age were sitting there and waiting for me. I smiled, "Hi, I'm Demi..."
"Oh we know", one of them said as she jumped and ran up to me, "I'm Natashia, this is my twin sister Natalie and our best friend Cindy."
The twins both had blonde hair, brown eyes and round faces with a sharp nose and small plump pink lips. Their friend, Cindy, was short with dark brown hair, blonde highlights and blue strand tucked behind her right ear, bright hazel eyes and clear tan skin. All three of them smiled as they crowded around me and shook my hand. I giggled, "It's nice to meet you all. So are you from around here?"
"Oh no", Natalie said as she flipped a blonde curl over her shoulder, "We're from Atlanta..."
"The three of you drove from Atlanta to New Jersey just to see my show?" I was shocked and a excited all at the same time, three girls drove a long way t see me! I giggled, "I'm gonna be in Atlanta in two weeks..."
"We know", Natashia said as she tucked a blonde curl behind her ear, "we just couldn't wait so daddy bought us tickets here, got us a limo driver, suites over at the Hilton and V.I.P. tickets. He'd do anything for his only twins."
Both the blondes high-fived each other and smiled. Cindy laughed, "They just begged me to come with them. We love you, you've inspired us..."
"To create our own band and write our own songs..."
"And preform our own shows and make our own cd..."
"And", Cindy said as she held her finger up to hush the twins, "we want you to have our first cd."
As she said this, Natashia reached inside her purse and pulled out a round silver disk and placed it in my hand. I smiled and looked it over, "Thanks, I'll deffinatly have to listen to it..."
"Time to go", Val said as he busted in through the door. I turned, "But it's only been a few..."
"Up, up, up... lets put a pin in it and stick it on the wall for later, okay love", Val said as he started to pull me out the door. I turned and faced the three smiling girls, "I'm sorry I have to cut it short..."
"It's fine we understand", Natalie said as she pulled her purse tighter over her shoulder, "we'll see you in New York!"
I turned and left the dressing room, upset with Val for jerking me away so quickly, "That was rather rude..."
"Got to get a move on it if you want to be in New York and your own hotel room by midnight", Val said as he walked with me outside. The doors opened and fans were screaming like crazy as I walked through them, touching some hand, signing some autographs, taking a couple pictures here and there. Finally I reached the door to my tourbus and turned to wave to all the fans before the doors were closed. I flopped down on the couch and smiled, "Insane..."
I started to think about the show, about all the fans, about the girls in my dressing room... and then I stopped smiling. Yes it was fabulous, it was fun and deffinatly worth all the sweat, but something still bugged me. I had felt like this for a while now and just thought maybe more shows, more meet and greets would make it go away, but at the end of the day I was still wanting... something. Maybe it was the big juicey cheeseburger my stomach was begging for. I sat up and looked at Hank, the bus driver, "Hanky... can we please run by a Burger King and get a couple double whoppers with cheese and lettuce and mustard and large, crispy, juicey, golden brown fries?"
Hank laughed, "Val said there is a bowl of apples in the back."
I moaned, "We don't have to tell him."
Nothing, Hank kept driving. I frowned, "I'll pay."
Hank looked up at the mirror, "You're getting there..."
"I'll make it super size...", the bus jerked and Hank sped up as we left Val's bus behind us. Hank looked up at the mirror, "Whatever you say, Miss Lovato."

Jon
"Thank you lady and gentlemen, have a nice night", I said as I walked off the stage at the Young Club. I stepped outside in the back alley where my lead guitar player and best friend joined me in all his excitement, "Dude, that was the biggest crowd yet! They were all lining up outside the door, all the honeys begging to get in to see us..."
I laughed, "Yeah,us. I'm pretty sure it was all the other single guys out on the floor..."
"Dude", Kris said as he placed his hand on my shoulder, "everybody knows that girls love rockstars. I saw that one blonde honey trying to get your hand many times... she even grabbed your ankle, remember?"
I laughed again, "Yeah I remember, almost made me trip on my face. But no worries, I got a honey of my own and there she is..."
As I said this Krystal stepped out and walked right up to me, her brown hair flowing over her shoulders, her bright green eyes looking me over as her pink lips curved up into a smile. I placed m arm around her and kissed her softly, "How'd you like the show?"
Krystal sighed and looked up to the sky, "I liked you a whole lot more."
Kris gagged and placed his hands in his pocket, "I'm a leave you two love birds alone, this is too gross for my eyes."
I chuckled as Kris stepped back in through the door closed it, leaving me and Krystal alone in the back alley. She wrapped her arms around me and kissed me again, "What do you say we get out of here? We can go back to my place, my parents are out of town."
I smiled, "As lovely as that sounds, I don't think so. Why don't we just hang out here for a while? We can go back inside and dance around, hang out with everyone..."
"We always hang out with everyone", Krystal said as she started to kiss me again. I pulled back and looked at her, "Then what do you want to do, besides going to your big, abandon house to do who knows what?"
Krystal smiled, "I brought my explorer, the one where the seats flip down..."
"Besides that", I said as I looked up to the sky and frowned. Krystal let go of me, "Jon, we've been dating for like three monthes now and you won't do anything with me."
I looked at her, "I do alot of things with you, I just don't do THAT with you. You knew before we started dating that I wasn't into that kind of thing."
Krystal rolled her eyes, "Fine, whatever. We can go back inside."
I smiled and kissed her, "Thank you."
Krystal rolled her eyes again as I took her hand and pulledher in through the back door with me. We turned our way through the backstage and came out onto the dance floor where other teens were dancing wildly. Krystal and I dance for a few songs and then went over to the bar as I leaned in towards Benny, "Hey man, how's it going?"
Benny smiled, "This is the biggest group we've had yet."
I smiled, "And they're just gonna keep coming too. How many more do you think there is from lastnight?"
Benny shrugged, "Your guess is as good as mine. There's even more standing outside."
I smiled and clapped my hands together in excitement, "This is awesome, Benny. You've got the hottest teenage club in all of New York."
Benny chuckled, "Yeah. Oh, I need to meet with you and the other guys in about an hour or so back here."
I nodded, "Sounds good."
I turned and walked away with a couple of sodas in my hand, catching Kris as I walked by, "Hey, meet over in Benny's office in about an hour. Spread the word to the rest of the guys."
Kris nodded and danced his way to the other side of the room as I walked back to where Krystal was sitting. Cam, the senior quarterback from school, was standing over where she was sitting, whispering in her ear, making her giggle. I stopped for a minute and watched as she sat back and smiled. Cam turned and walked away, leaving Krystal by herself, smiling and fingering her nails on the table. I hesitated and then started again, reaching her in a few strides. I set the sodas down on the table and sat next to her, "What was that all about?"
Krystal looked up at me, "What was what?"
I nodded towards Cam, "That."
Krystal looked over at Cam and then looked back at me, "Oh, we were just talking. He started to get flirty, but I told him to go away. Don't be jealous..."
"I'm not jealous", I said as I felt my ears turn red and burn with anger as I watched Cam look over his shoulder and smile at Krystal. I looked back at her, "What'd he say?"
Krystal rolled her eyes, "Just started bragging about last seasons homecoming game when he through a forty yard touchdown, something like that."
I nodded. Krystal and I sat there and sipped on our drinks for a little bit and talked... we I mainly talked, Krystal kept kissing my neck and face. After a while she said she was tired and wanted to go home. I told her I'd take her, but she reminded me that she drove herself and she'd see me tomorrow, so I watched as she left and walked towards the bars again. This time I just walked behind the bar and throught he small door that lead to Benny's office. Kris and Greg were already sitting there when I walked in, "Where's Toad?"
I looked behind me, "Flirting with some redhead across the room."
Kris shook his head, "He's always got some chick with him", he tapped Greg's arm, "lastnight... saw him with your mom."
"Are you sure because I thought it was your mom", Greg said as he leaned back and smiled. Kris shook his head, "No, I'm not sure. I could't tell if it was your mom or you."
"Oh", I said as I laughed and flopped down on the couch. Greg jumped up and grabbed Kris and they began to wrestle as Toad walked in, "Guys, what's going on?"
They both stopped and looked at each other and then grabbed Toad and started to rough him up. I shook my head, "Guys..."
They kept rolling around in the office yelling at each other, "Man, get off me!" "I'm gonna break your hand!" "Dude, stop biting me!"
I sat up and leaned forward, "Guys..."
"Get off my face", Toad said as Kris sat down ontop of him and smiled as he wiggeled his hips. Greg had his legs pinned down and Kris tapped his shoulder, "Take his pants."
Toad began to scramble to try and get out from under Kris as Greg started to jerk his pants off. Suddenly the door opened and Benny walked into see Kris sitting on Toad's face and Greg with Toad's pants held over his head. Benny crossed his arms, "Get off and grow up!"
Greg gave Toad his pants back as Kris stood up and sat next to me. Benny walked over to his desk and pulled out a long paper that was rolled up behind his cabnet. He tookt he rubber band off and unrolled it on his desk, "Do you boys know what this is?"
The four of us looked over onto his desk to see the design of a new Young Club. It was bigger with more of a dance floor, a bigger stage and even a second floor. Kris laughed and slapped my shoulder, "We're expanding the Young Club?"
Benny nodded, "It's already been done. We move everything and have the grand opening next friday."
The guys jumped around and high-fived each other as I leaned over the prints and smiled, "Benny, why didn't you tell us this before?"
He shrugged, "I didn't think it would matter..."
"Of course it matter man, we're your band", I said as I shook my head, "This means bigger crowds which means we need to write new songs..."
"Dude", Kris said as he placed a hand on my shoulder, "Maybe a big producer will walk through those doors, hear us and then we're on the road to rockstardum!"
We all began to laugh and high-five each other, but Benny didn't look to excited. I stopped, "What's up?"
Benny rubbed the back of his neck, "I don't know how to tell you guys this, but I've already got another band."
The guys started jumping up and down, "We got an opening band..."
"Not an opening band", Benny said with disappointment. I looked at him, "You mean, a replacement band? But Benny, we've been with you for two years now..."
"And now with a bigger club it means bigger names are going to walk through those doors", Benny said as he shrugged, "I'm sorry boys, but this is your last show."
All the excitement drained out of the room, there was a cloud of sadness and lonesomeness as we all stood there and looked at Benny. He sighed, "I'm sorry, but we've got a ton of kids coming in now, which means they're gonna want to see more then..."
"Just because we're not a big name yet", I said as I crossed my arms, "you're kicking us tot he curb, without a warning, a fair good-bye, or even a chance to stick around for a little bit longer?"
Benny shrugged, "You guys have been with me for two years, if you were meant to make it big, it would have happened already."
I couldn't take any more of it. I turned and stomped out of the room angrily. I ignored everyone that tried to grab me out on the dance floor and walked behind the stage and through the door that lead to the back alley. I walked around in a complete circle and kicked over a trash can, I couldn't believe it. My band and I get kicked because Benny's getting a bigger place, because we're not a big name in Hollywood. We're just city boys chasing a dream, going nowhere. I was ticked.
I faced out of the alley and thought about Krystal, maybe she would be there for me. Infact, a night with her didn't sound to bad right about now. I tucked my hands in my pocket and started walking...

oh

lol

and i just asked you on remember me

but im gonna be a freshmen

wow a four year diff

explains why your so much better at writing than me :D

where do you live?

I'm in florida :)