Chapter 7
My dad is uhh…
(Nat’s POV)
"When what happens?" “Well you see, I said very slowly, my dad is uhh…I had to think of a good lie quick, I mean I can’t just take my time; that always gives a secret away. “My dad is….Bipolar”, wow Natalie, great lie, I said in my mind as I mentally smacked myself in the head. “Uhh yeah that’s right he’s Bipolar, and sometimes he forgets to take his medicine and he gets angry really quick…yeah, really quick.”
“So what does that have to do with you going out with me Nick asked with a, I know your lying look on his face?” “Well, I’m the only one that can…umm…” Why was it sooo hard lying I usually lie so fast I don’t even remember what I said, but I knew it made sense. “You know what Natalie just cut the crap” Nick said angrily. “Wha..what” “I said stop lying, ha can you even lie well; or at least have enough decency to say no to a guy. Oh yeah and my dad’s the Tooth Fairy, he leaves every night to give little children happiness.
He has this big jar and every month the King Tooth Fairy comes by our house and collects the teeth and my dad gets his paycheck!” I was almost to tears now, why couldn’t I just tell him, am I that stupid, it’s just so hard. “Nick, I choked out tears running down my face, I’m sorry that umm I can’t lie don’t have enough decency to tell you no; but I can’t tell you no ‘cause I wanna go out with you I’m just not able to tell you why.”
Then I ran, ran all the way to the forest that’s at the very
end of my neighborhood. I cried, cried about my abusive father, my encounter with Nick, and how I’m not being able to tell that little secret that burns within me. It was really starting to burn a hole in my heart!
(Nick’s POV)
Why, why did I have to make her cry? Am I that stupid? I walked in my house feeling even worse than when I left it; causing Kevin to ask if I refilled my insulin pump. “No Kevin I’m just pondering why I made a girl cry.” “You made Natalie cry?” Yes Kevin, I just said that” “Whoa, what did you say to her?” I quickly explained the whole story to him…Then I said “Oh yeah and my dad’s the Tooth Fairy, he leaves every night to give little children happiness.
He has this big jar and every month the King Tooth Fairy comes by our house and collects the teeth and my dad gets his paycheck!” “Umm wow Nick that was really mean” I know, I know and she just ran off crying!” Nick I think you should do something; whatever you think will help this situation”
“Wait your not gonna help me?” “No” Why not?” “Because you always no what to do in a situation like this.” “Uhh I do” “Yes you do, dig deep inside you’ll find the answer to your problem” “Kay, thanks anyway” “Uh-huh” I went to my room and laid down on my bed. Then it hit me!! I quickly pulled out my guitar and started writing.
Complicated!!
I was mesmerized by your beauty
The way you smiled; the way you laughed
But something’s inside of you
That you can’t let out
You’ve been holding it in too long
You gotta let it out; please just let it out
[Chorus: don’t make it complicated for me
I wanna hold and love you
But I can’t if you don’t
And spill the secrets inside of you
Don’t make it complicated for me baby
Its doin us no good
I don’t wanna worry
About you all day and night
Please don’t make it complicated]
Baby I don’t know if you need help
But I don’t care
I wanna help you
Even if you’ve gotten all the help you need
Just come to me
And I’ll make it all better
But if you don’t tell me…..
Chorus:
You hide all your feelings in faux smile
You think you’re strong but you’re not after all
Please it’s not that complicated to tell
Is it?
Just trust in me
Chorus X2:
Complicated
Complicated
I’d finished my song but that wasn’t enough. I wrote three more songs then got ready for bed. Soon enough Joe and Kevin came in my room. “So you found the answer to your problem, Kevin asked?” “Kinda, not fully but I understand it more” “Wait, wait a minute, Joe said frazzled, did I miss something ‘cause I did can I please have a little explaining. Could it be on a chart or on a board drawn out, maybe even a presentation!” “Joe shut up” me and Kevin said at the same time.
hey i kno it ends in a odd spot..but oh well!!lol Also i wrote the song myself for the special occasion !!!
